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Tomorrow is the two week mark after injuring my other knee. It has been slowly getting better, which has made me think about the last time I had a knee problem. I felt completely isolated, and at the same time useless. It is incredibly frustrating for someone who considers themselves to be an independent person, to rely on others to take me places, wait for me to catch up, and not be able to go and do anything I want, anytime I want. It is not that I am ungrateful to all those that have helped me in the past and in the last two weeks, in fact I don't think I would have coped without them. I just can't help but feel like I am a burden on those around me.
Fortunately, each day allows me a bit more mobility, a bit more strength and a little less pain. Each day I can walk further for longer, and quicker. Rather than looking at the big picture, which only depresses me, I have been concentrating on the 'next step'. Today, I went from two crutches, to just the one, which was a good boost to my confidence, and makes me feel like I am making progress. Enough to put some pressure on my leg for a short amount of time. The next step that I have set myself is walking more naturally. This seems like a convoluted target, which isn't very specific, but it is more of an intermediate step which is achievable in the next few days, and will help with the next stage which would be getting rid of the crutches all together.
I guess what I am trying to say is I have to break a problem down, into manageable stages, otherwise looking at the objective as a whole could be overwhelming. Setting small aims to achieve an overall goal may seem obvious, but for me it requires deliberate thought and effort.
On that same theme, I have been thinking a lot about the 'next step' after University. I have some ideas, about what I want to achieve but nothing that I can really say when people ask about my plans after university. I used to think I was the type of person who would want to push themselves and find a challenging job that will test me, but what I find myself saying when I look at a job specification is 'I can do that, that and that, maybe I should apply'. Which leads me to the conclusion that I just want an easy job, that will pay me enough and let me get on with life. This is summed up really well by my housemate who is a much more experienced blogger than myself, Phil, in Potentially Grand.
I am sure I will change my mind about what I want to do next year, however the decision may end up being made for me, and I may be returning to Staffordshire in September to complete a module or two to finalise my degree if my knee injury prevents me from doing the practical work. Either way I will continue to make progress by taking everything a step at a time.